Hope by Cathy C. (Omaha, NE)

I have been working with my sponsor, and we were discussing “The Doctors Opinion”. I was asked in what ways I identified with the passage and this was my response. It amazed me that back in 1935 when this passage was first written, it is like they were writing about me.

I am an addict of the worst variety. I had the obsession of the mind and the allergy of the body. I would swear off drugs only to start using again that same day. I thought all of my behaviors were normal. I thought and believed I was doomed to die a helpless, hopeless addict.

But today I know if I work closely with my sponsor, I have hope. If I work closely with another addict I have hope. If I follow this program of recovery outlined in the first 164 pages of Alcoholics Anonymous, I have hope. I also know and believe whole-heartedly that I must have complete abstinence from all mind-altering drugs. If I do all of these things I believe I have hope. For today I am not a helpless addict doomed to die.

Today I am not here to laugh at Cocaine Anonymous; I have remained to pray with other addicts such as myself.